Ok.. It's for real.... Cancer

Wed. Sept. 24th The doctor (Rawson) called and asked me to come up and visit in the afternoon. I had told Kevin (my boss at work) that if it was cancer that I would probably be going back to Salt Lake for treatment at the Huntsman Cancer Institute. When I got to the doctor’s we got Julie on the speaker phone of my cell phone and he wasted no time beating around the bush. He came right out and said I had adeno-carcinoma which is a form of lung cancer but it had spread to other areas of my body. I could tell this really hit Julie hard. Because I had realized it two days before, I had actually come to accept it and it didn’t hit me as hard as her. The only treatment for me was chemo because it was too far spread. This hit us pretty hard, but I tried to keep a level head and ask pertinent questions. Since it was only Chemo for an option, he said I could get the treatment in Salt Lake or there in Rapid City (they have a fairly good treatment facility) or even in St. George. I realized at that point that I would prefer St. George with my family for sure. I said I would get the numbers for the facility in St. George and the doctor said when I got them to him, he would have his secretary set up an appointment for me next week. We then asked about time frames and he said he was not an oncologist, but it was not real good odds for me. He said this type of cancer they don’t refer to as curable, they just try and extend and improve the quality of life I have. This was pretty hard. So I went back to work and told Kevin I was headed home.
Started making some pretty tough phone calls to Holly and my Mom and Dad. This was not what anyone expected or wanted to hear for sure. But as we worked through it I started to realize a few things. First, I had been faithful in following the Lord’s will in moving myself to Rapid (although we weren’t always as happy as we should have been about it) and second, I had been trying real hard to live the best that I could. So, I felt a great peace that if this was what the Lord had in store for me, I was going to accept his will and try and make his will be mine and as the Savior said, Not mine, but his will be done. This was incredibly comforting and helped me a lot.